Game in the Brain

You cannot have two people in the Room talking about a Topic they have no Technical Knowledge about. You cannot have a non-technical sales, talk to a client who is not himself an engineer.

My boss wants me to go to the Site and Talk the Clients themselves. It seems that they all forgot my Life as a former Artist – Working with Ambiguous Client Requirements was what I grew up with. And like many artists who learned that lesson – we became just a seriously technical and systematic.

1. NEVER rely on Memory and Verbal. 
2. Always Document all the Requirements until you Have ACTION, MEASUREMENTS and QUALITIES

 So the Clients have their Own Problems and they make their Problems Our problems. Thats life, while do not condone such (thats why I PAY FOR BA or ANALYSIS and Information), and others are happy to waste people’s time one making no real decision we have to rise above this.

Whats the Point of Bringing me to the SITE? So I can see for myself what I already see in the BACKEND of our business. How the company treats the Artists, the Technical, etc… I know how they treat people because it creates people who treat people like SHIT.

Its not that I’m not saying no. Its that IF I SHOW THEM HOW ITS DONE WILL THEY LISTEN? WILL THEY FOLLOW? If I show them what any GM who can run a 10 hour game with nasty players can do and has patience for, does that mean? Will they think of themselves as Perpetually Helpless .

Moving Goal Posts

If I go and I show them how its done what will happen? I already know what will happen – they will disbelieve me. They will think what ever thing I manage is not enough. They will move the standard higher and change the goal posts. I’ve been there and I know because that TRAIT of honest reconciliation of limits and flaws is not a strong suite in the company. We are not a DATA DRIVEN company.

A Refuge

How we treat people is SHITTY and it reflects how shitty people we are. And how sometimes I feel like that we deserve this shit. Then there are those who don’t deserve it and manage to make magic out of nothing. And its for those guys I want them to have a refuge. I just want a REFUGE out of all this shit for those who are Kind enough to be kind and keep being kind.

I know I will have to Lead a Project, but I need to be sure my team can run things when I go “DEEP” into the crazy of philippine biz. and I limit it to only 3-4 months at a time. That I have someone who can shadow me and learn with me (NEVER ANALYZE ALONE).

I’m a fucking nerd but if I have to I can pretend to be Sales, but not for a long time (because I hate not being ME for a long time).

And of course this will affect my marriage and family life, so I need to be sure I’m willing to live with the life I miss for this stupid opportunity.