Game in the Brain

There are periods when work seems too daunting and I panic inside. When I panic I really want to escape into my games. Especially now that I have more skills to play with that affects my world building, system designing, and GMing I want to go into that space in my mind where I can hone those things and improve on them.

Turning 38 recently I look back my regrets and most of them is a wasted youth gaming. But there is a strange contradiction to having spent my youth playing TRPGs is that it created a framework for me to get to where I am now. Now I’m late in the Spaced Repetition Game, Mind Hacking, Habit Optimization, and System optimization. I’m a noob in Life Gaming, I only found the Strategy Guide just recently and I’m still hacking my way through it all.

My regrets peek a bit when I realized I understood Spaced Repetition incorrectly and wish I got into it when I was 12 (the age I think I could have comprehended it). I imagine what I could have accomplished if on 2011 I learned Spaced Repetition and all the tricks of Fluency Forever and applied it in learning Mandarin. I would probably be level 4 by Now (I would probably reach my Level 4 goal in 2-3 more years at 2020ish).

I have a 38 year old body and want to Swing Swords, Shields, Spears, Draw Bows, and I want to get into Historical martial arts.

But when I think back, It was only around 23-27 did I really have any control over my own mind. That I was able to overcome most of my anxiety and what I now Call DRAMA (see below). I didnt really have a good education until now and most of the tools I use now only existed quite recently. To have done this all Low-Tech (pen and paper) would have been much harder and a very rare skill back 10+ years ago.

Its not a bad set of tools to have as I proceed to 40. At least I got here because there was no way my background and circumstance would have brought me here (catholic, traditional, don’t know the value of education, surrounded by people who sell “education” without any practical use, being naive and trusting).

DRAMA Test
Test if it is Drama and Not Work.
1) are we dealing with facts? are we dealing with facts that inform a decision/correct course of action? Are we trying to get facts now when we don’t have any?
2) are we performing a process within our guiding principles and role? Can we test the activity against core documents of roles, duties, and goals/objectives.
3) Is there an objective way to measure our current actions/priorities/tasks, against all the possible options we could be doing. (opportunity cost). And are we performing the objectively best course of action?