Game in the Brain

There are a lot of things I want to do, but have no real output.

Open RPG Project. There is no real point to the ORPG project particularly the 11C set I planned out and worked on. if it would fill out at 100k words that would be 300 hours writing it. Even if I manage to read all my Historical Sources like The Alexiad and do all the research that would be about 1,500 manhours (I was supposed to start on the History of Islam Podcast to start looking for sources). At 6 hours a week that would 5 years if I never miss a week or I’m able to compensate for the weeks I missed. I planed to do this all in Gdocs since it would make it the fastest and easiest Wiki type booklet. 1800 hours in all.

Warring States Setting. Transcribing the Zhan Guo Ce, 300k words would take me 100 hours I dont have. Then Citing and Sourcing each key term in that document (easier with Google Docs Research hotkeys and tools) would be take about another 500 hours. Then I’d have to draw a bunch of maps and references, which is made easier since I could do it all in Gdocs.
Then there is that I’m stuck in Millet farming studies and Early chinese agricultural studies. This would probably take double of the ORPG project.

• My listening speed is 600wpm
• My transcription speed is 50wpm. 
• my writing speed is about 300wp hour (thats writing and thinking at 5wpm) but its a minimum of 2-4 hours, and there is good chance (50/50) half would be edited out. So on average probably 200words per hour. 
• writing, really Deliberate Practice type writing that makes my brain hurt, make me hungry, and leaves me spent is the closest metric to how much ideas I process in a metric. “me no fast think” 
• Typically anything I write would need about would take as much time a my writing speed.
• If I’m able to just power through 4-6 hours a day on deep work, or ideally 12 hours a week I can do so much.
• Ideally I do as much as 10-15 hours a week listening through all the Manuals I read through and taking some notes. 
• Work and Studies has me at about 
• 10 manuals to read through in Production Operations Management
• I have 3,000 words to learn in chinese
• I have to accumulate about 2,000 manhours of chinese exercises if I want regular prociciency.
• I have my maintenance and exercise to budget
• then there is my Quality Time with the Family, and my social obligations. 
• I have to Write our Company’s Production operations manual (our ideal practice based on the technology we can afford and the skills we currently have), and thats about 100k words. That would take 5 years if no one helped me in the company. 
• Then there are all these self studies which are little experiments of trying to create an Open Source Computer Infrastructure for the Plant and a Google Drive powered one. Which is going to eat probably 6-8 hours a week. 
• None of my RPG projects make money and I have to accept that I do not have the disposable income anymore (especially with the 2nd child coming). They cost money as well. 
• None of the projects make more more employable or give me “Professional Capital”. 
• That I can continue my gaming in my self improvement in the hopes that one day I’m able to make time for my necessities and wishes.