Game in the Brain

1. 1.

   the capacity to accept or tolerate delay, trouble, or suffering without getting angry or upset.

   “you can find bargains if you have the patience to sift through the dross”

   synonyms:

   forbearance, tolerance, restraint, self-restraint, stoicism; More

2. 2.

   chiefly British term for solitaire (sense 1).

So today i must be patience since I’ve had some delays. My fragile system is thrown out of whack and I must weigh how best to use my meager resources to get the job done. Prior what I do now I brute force try to get through the day at tremendous cost and stress, and go on a binge of shit and more problems. 

My approach is daoist – in the sense I dont force it. I do what I can with diminished resources and set a much lower bar (in what is a humiliatingly low bar lolz). Anyway I’m pissed at the weakness and i have shit to do and already I have made great sacrifices: my gaming and airsoft, but life is always going to ask for more if one wants more out of life. 


So I got to be patient. I got to channel that energy to documentation and having a plan the next time this delay happens. that I have my priorities and with the handicap I do X and try to manage Y.