Game in the Brain

in home and self care, I noticed that you dont need to be told what to do, how much to do something, or what to stop doing. Once I started monitoring what I did, I learned the opportunity and comparitive cost of taking care of myself or my home (exercise, nutrition, rest, playin/fun, relationships, etc…). So eventually I knew what to do and amassed a complicated set of documentation of how complicated my problem is.

Around 2016 is where i had to give up a lot of stuff when the wife was pregnant I had to cut a lot of my blogging time, this is what remained with gaming time. Gaming was 80% support activities, and 20% actually doing the gaming. So much so that I started getting nervous and anxious in games. I’ve lost practice and I’ve gotten worse. Support activities was mostly writing and research and now thats become a main stay in how I do things.

I now know how much time I had when I had no kids and no self care. My self care (plus my sleep) is 72hours out of the 163 hours in a week (sustainably meaning this is the minimum sustainable level; any less and i spiral down). I sometimes have to sacrifice some self care and I significantly get sicker and weaker.